There’s no way I’m getting out of this rut that I’m in without changing something. Or a few things. But something, one thing, is a start.
What I’m trying is bumping my schedule back by about an hour. That means going to sleep at about 11 instead of midnight, and getting up at 5 AM instead of 6. At 5, the world is still dark and quiet, and I can write without distraction for 60 – 90 minutes. I’m not mentally exhausted from a day of office boredom and bullshit. It leaves the end of the day open for guilt free recliner and TV enjoyment. I’m accustomed to beating myself up for not writing every evening, so this feels strange.
A shift of an hour might not sound like much, but I’m a night-owl so it’s a pretty big deal to me. I’d rather stay up until 5 than get up at 5, but life isn’t designed for people like me so for the time being this is my best option as far as I can figure. Getting up early might just be disruptive enough to right this fucked-up ship that I’m on.
I’ve put a couple of my other websites into hibernation for now. The only ones I’m going to update are this one and The Music Omnivore. The new writing time will be devoted to a book I’ve been thinking about for too long, but haven’t progressed with to my satisfaction. The working title is “The Musician”, but it may very well morph into “The Comedian”. We’ll see how it goes.
I also plan to post short updates here a two or three times a week, and possibly knock out a few opinion pieces in the process.
I don’t know why anyone could possibly give a shit about this, but the evidence shows that some people do. If I can make just one person (other than myself) a little happier with my writing, then it’s worth it. I’m not looking to get wealthy…that’s bullshit. I’d love to be wealthy, but primarily I’m looking to making a small difference in my life. And yours?